Recap 2018

Its already december
And talk about 2018 i have a lot of thing to said , but well… i know i can be messy writer so i will write make like 3 part… its bit extravaganza but well its the best i can said

This years… i learn a lot
Like a lot

Early Years

Maybe between early feb to march not really sure , i learn to accept that in some point of my life i need to face with failure

My dream..what i want to do its not hard and i cant barely anymore so i give up , i give up my dream , do i regret now? Of course

But its life full of regret  and i try to deal with it , make a peace , learn to let go , learn to accept failure of my life , trying more the best , trying other option…trying…just trying anything

That what i learn in early years of 2018 , a bit hard i can said but i barely manage to became stronger , to let go , to forgive my self how naive i was

Middle Years

To be honest there not much nothing happen , i learn how to deal with failure , and other thing yeah trying other thing to make my life more value. Ah i forget to mention in early middle years i meet my firend from America

So basicly she marriage and move there with her husband , and in middle years she back , she back for less than 2 week but i meet her everyday we made good memories , simple but its good to see her back

I realize how i miss her so much , she is person i can said about anything , i can cringly to her since i more youngest than her so i dont really thinking what i want to said to her , i can complain to her from small thing to big thing i love that said of her , she is person will heard anything i want to said without any judge

Meet her make its good but its move to my boring life i wish i have sugar coating in my life cause my life is so flat , that what i feel that time , my life is flat i boring till death , but of course i cant forget , i have good couple night this time.

Its rare and super hard to have good couple night in this age , i sound super old , but well.. im really feel old enough im not person like before i rarely go out at night , im super lazy to do that , but when i fight with my lazy and go otu in night i glad , i have good time with  good people of course

But still… i craving for sugar coating

End Years

Here we go… this my last recap of 2018 , i realize how i lazy post blog , i just have really couple good post this years and i just realize in the end of years , i come to some spirit that next years i will do better than 2018

Finger cross

But in some point in my life , im glad to my self , after a years more years i glad i keep this blog sometime this blog live super fine , sometimes this blog just barely alive but im proud i keep doing until this long

I never iamgine i can manage this blog this long , to be honest i thought after i working and not younger anymore , i will forget this blog and keep doing my life , but im wrong there something deep down in my heart i cant leave blogging , its not just stupid teenager passion but its more about i love from when i was younger till now , writing

In end of this years i learn too much about life , about being human , about resepct , about more to forgive abotu my self , that im not perfect , about…depression

Yeah just last month end of november early desember my mom go to hospital because she have bad depression. Im shock to know that , and she… have hard time either me. Thinking about how my mom became i cant forget about Jonghyun. Yeah… he…

Jonghyun in december last years decide to ending his life cause she in deep depression

And my mom get depression in december..its like…WTF. Im scared my mom do something stupid that kinda theory cant let go from my head , im scared but glad i asking to doctor help how to , and keep praying , and she manage with me till now

She on  good hand , and she started doing well in home.

What happen with my mom its make me realize how hard dealing with someone who in state of depression , i learn how to became cruel , to said ‘no , you cant do that’ just for her good.

Im trying to became more stronger and stronger , and all because what happend and deep down , im feel greatful i know Jonghyun , he somehow manage to make me more brave more open about what my mom strugle with , he somehow in my life happend to help me.

He help me a lot

End of this years my life its like reading roller coster both my phsyly and mentaly tired but im glad i manage to pass cause i know i pass and i will became a better person

Im my life i always hope to became person who more like person , its sound stupid wish but here my wish… ‘jadi manusia yang dimanusiakan’

That my recap of my life 2018 last word for my 2018 is… thanks 2018 you make me more human than before i keep 2018 in my heart , there special space for you.

Living In Space You Can Wearing Anything

Stay in Bandung , Indonesia make me easy to choice what i want to wearing , cause weather is nice , not like before but still nice i can wearing any kind typical of clothing i want to wearing

Of course expect winter clothing

Freedom to choice whenever i want to wearing isnt nice? But because its happen everyday i rarely feel glad about how nice weather where i live now… but im just normal human sometimes i forget to greatful what i have now

PS : i wearing local sandal , i never expect local product its good but im wrong thsi sandal is good , its stylish , and most important aspect its comfy

 

Top : New Look / Outwear : Magnolia  /  Pants : New Look  /  Glasses : Calvin Kein / Shoes : M&S

Working On It

 

Im truly miss write blog. This blog i manage alive until now , a bit sad i cant keep update as often as i used before , i lack of material of post , i stop review make up , i stop explore i just…stay at home bake for penny little money

Yah thats what i do

But recently…. just recently i keep doing… doing love my self more. I feel more enough of my self , more love my self , i always working on to love my self , to keep my body in positive vibe. Dont let anyone hurt my self or make me feel down.

I work in that point always

My life been okay… there no drama , no sugar coating , no man , no love to other , but i get my self a lot of love , a lot of reward for my self. And… somehow…maybe next year i can open what im struggle about past years.

I still keep working until moment i can open , i will open.

But until i clear everything , i will tell you my not so big secret HAHAHA

Okay just forget about my mumbling , random , i will post my stylish couple days ago , i feel rock wearing this kinda style but i know its unpleast for other people to see , but who care , i love this look , let me get my freedom

I wear what i make feel comfort
I wear what i make confident
I wear what i make feel rock

Top : H&M / Outwear : Berkha  /  Pants : Mark & Spencer  /  Glasses : Calvin Kein / Shoes : Hong Kong

 

Love My Self More

Soon i will became 25.
To be honest its big deal , well i know in future if i thinking back why its big deal , i maybe thinking im stupid.
But at least for now its big deal for me.

I asking my self after 25 years living what you be done?
Many thing im done of course! There a lot of thing i learning in some point i like this chance being alive but in some point i tired how this world work

There mix feeling depend how my life but for sure being 25 i love my self more. I know excatly im have bad thing and good thing inside me befre i trying to hide or make that bad thing of me became good thing in some point i tired. I cant do that anymore

And now i just accept how bad i was , trying do more good thing than bad thing and embrace all i have now. First i thinkign i like my self look now than before im not in ideal side of woman even for indonesia woman. Im big

Before trying too look smal , look not so big but for now i like. I like the way i look , i love my self more and try show more confident cause i know if i dont love my self there no one love me.

So i wil proud show how ‘big’ i am , and show more style in my far away ideal body goals

Like i said before this year i will post more ootd , style cause its something i like something i want share , and now im confident enought no matter how not goals my body i was but i love my body more maybe than other who have body goals

Top : Monki  /  Pants : Online  /   Outware : H&M / Bag : Berskha / Sandals : BeBob

So Far So Fun

 

I can said it still early 2018 but there something i need to say good by in this earl year sometimes i thought its not good start point , i wonder how i past rest of 2018 but i realize its because im so down now

But i wont go for detail with what happen with my life cause im not ready yet to explain.

For sure even my life these day not go as i want but well i try to have fun as much as i can im not younger anymore ther will be less fun in future so when i can laugh wehn i can feel fun i will

I will have fun like crazy

Hope soon i’ll be back on track for bloging i thought so far i will do. Hope in future i will do more style post

Top : Uniqlo   /  Pants : Batik Online  /  Glasses : Calvin Kein

Accept and Move

 

How you guys? I hope you doing fine , i really miss you guys its 2018  already , last year i dont have anything i want to achive but this years is different i have bigger plan this years.

How about you guys? Do you any bigger plan for 2018?

If do , i hope the best thing happen to your life.

2017 give me roller coster emotion , i dont want talk about that more its already past , i already accept what happen in 2017 and i want to move on without talking about it anymore.

 

Top : Berskha   / Short : Forever 21  Shoes : Convers / Glasses : Tom Ford

 

Its over

By the time you read my blog , im already back to my work life.

I been off for 2 weeks form my work , its feel awesome , cause i can do soemthing that i always like , even its not for money more to wasting money , but i dont care. I like bloging , writing about stuff that i like , and can share with you gusy with big hope its can help you inspired you in some way

Past 2 week beside im enjoy my holiday , of course! I trying to take many pricture as i can , and share to you guys.

Top : Berskha / Outwear : Pull and Bear  / Pants : H&M  Shoes : Adidas / Cap : Berskha

 

Feel Good To Back

I think i started to back to game , last week i post my ootd , and this week too. Feel grad to back to track , even i changed from review make up to ootd kinda post , but still i cant deny i feel good to back

To be honest , review product its bit tricky for me , i work now , and review something need more try and thinking about if this good for oily skin , combine or dry skin , its hard to be honest and lot of work

OOTD its more simple , i just need to dress nicely from point of my view and go out in morning , cause i need sun light LOL

Its hard sometimes i faild cause i cant wake up , im not morning person but for one post per week , i need to wake up its easy i can do it! Self motivation

 

Top Inner : New Look  / Top Outwear :  Gaudi / Bottom : New Look / Sandals : Be Bob

Not So Stylish But Comfy

I know i know its been a while since im write

Writing blog , review and other its became my problem lately , i found my self get hard time when starting new post

So here my post without too much write , just share you my lazy , comfy ootd

Top : H&M  / Pants : New Look/ Sandals : Payless

 

 

Eugene The Goat

These day i been hectic with anything start from my life till my work , everything is mess and i trying tomake everything right its need time , btu still even i get that much time , i cant get enough with all hectic my life been

If i have time i prefer to watching series or just lay down playing game or do nothing instead of go out find something to write.

Even i have some material still im to lazy to edit and post

That my life now , how i life as woman in age 24

 

I expect too much from this place Eugene The Goat , even at first place how i get there is not pleasure adventure , the road is not kidding at all , its very bad and i driving small car , good for him he still barely good until this time.

Even the road is not pleasure , but after i arrive they give me what i expect and to be honest its more than i expect , place is really good , its make me feel refresh and calm

With good vibe and i have good friend fro company me ,everything goes smooth and just good in many term condition

I like my time i spent here , everything its so relaxing , perfect its seem what i worry is blow away because wind go to crazy kekeke

 

Coffee its good , not that bad its good after all , but something i realize that smell of coffee its not strong i prefer drinking coffee with strong smell of coffee , but even its not make me pleasure its good

Good still good

For food i go with croisan , beef croisan its not bad , its good but not my style instead i prefer nutella beagel its super sweet , for sweet tooth like me its perfect , its just like heaven

Just if i have chance and not to lazy , i will like to visit this place again , its really relaxing , its hard for me to find place make feel relaxing usually cafe around my area just hectic , super hectic one so when i visit cafe i just feel more pleasure but this time i glad i feel relaxing